It probably doesn't matter.

Things are different for me. My life path isn't the norm, the situations I have found myself in and continue to find myself in aren't typical (I think?). My life is eventful. I sometimes find myself having to explain to others why I am like I am. 

But perhaps this is the norm and we are all living very rich inner lives that just aren't apparent to others at first glance?

Sometimes I feel like I should write it all down, all the things I've witnessed, taken part in, all the things that have happened to me (good and bad) that I don't always think I had a say in...but I honestly don't know where to start or how to break it down. 

My life is interesting but it probably doesn't appear that way to outsiders. An overweight 40 year old woman with her round velcro cat, I mean what exactly does she DO? What has she SEEN? Well...

Good Things

A list because why not.

- I've not experienced a migraine (silent or classic type in quite a while). At one point I was experiencing occular migraines every other day so to have not experienced any for a good while now, has been truly delightful and refeshing. I will never, ever take pain free days for granted ever again.

- It's freezing outside which suits me. Grey, damp and grim, but I like how the cold feels on my face when I'm all wrapped up. It's also very nice to arrive back home to my cosy, warm house and rotund cat.

- Leaving the house feels a lot less daunting and manageable than it did.

- I can leave the house now without checking everything several times over and over. Still test the doors a bit but it's better than what it was. 

- Columbo episodes from the 1970's are fantastic. A friend has gotten me back into watching Columbo recently. Not only is it a great comfort watch, I'm enjoying seeing how the wealthy lived in LA back then. So stylish and classy (even if murderous). Also Dog the basset hound is wonderful (don't tell my cat this).

- I am seeing The The twice this year. I'm very lucky and spoilt to be able to see them again. Not quite sure if these shows will beat the experience of the Ally Pally gig last year (that gig felt transcendent) but I'm more than happy to find out.

- Been feeling better about "things." I don't mean to be cryptic, it's just that "things" encompasses a massive tangle of thoughts, feelings and events. Early days but I feel hopeful. Thank god for the NHS.

- Phone calls with my dad. 

- Mrrrrs and purrs and vibrating tails from my cat.

- Coffee. Always, always coffee. 

- Being able to read again. This should probably be at the top of the list if I'm honest because I didn't realise how much I missed being able to read. It's such a joy to be able to concentrate enough, to have the ability to focus again. 

- Comics especially those that are journals or memoirs written by women. I cannot get enough of them.

There is more but that's enough for now. 

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